Sunday, September 3, 2023

When I Get Divorced

It was yesterday to me
Twelve if you count the times around the sun since
We were just doing our thing

All there ever was except I guess before
He has always told me
How I knew he was my son

He then around the sun only five times took me aside
"When I get divorced..."
I stopped him right there already the funniest thing I ever heard

I said you got Sara
You got me
We will always talk nothing has to be

A childhood in one act
With one more trip around the sun

Saturday, August 26, 2023

Future

Some times we are constrained.  Different shapes our travels take.  We can find ourselves in darkness.  The past can constrain but is hard to surprise you.  It is not supposed to.  I heard that tornado in Cleveland last week.  I've never personally known a tornado to be in Cleveland.  I didn't believe it

To be held within bounds  It is called life.  We often think we know the boundaries.  We knew you couldn't just shut a planet down in 2019 didn't we.  Our flight envelope hard to define.  That is a term I remember learning.  It was confounding, but the airplane is capable of certain things well defined in the flight envelope.  Engineers determine what the possibilities.  

What we might go through is not something we can determine.  I don't think it will take decades for another tornado to come to Cleveland.  On the east side of Cleveland the tornado took the roof off a house of worship.  Well we have a roof here by the grace of God.  It can always be worse.  No one is ever prepared for that.

I learned this lesson the hard way July 11 1995:

I had arrived in Bosnia in April and in my three months I hadn’t learned too much language, but I think I got my points across. It was the satellite receiver the head of mission couldn’t figure out anyways that got me started. The month MTV Europe was no longer free and Srebrenica was so ethnically cleansed. 

The war was almost over or so it had to be after so many years. Sarajevo was still closed and the communal koan of peace, the street car beat, was silent. How could it be imagined, who conceived who knew this Srebrenica to come? It was the only time I spent in Bosnia and understood fully I was not Bosnian. I was not from here. I had arrived to bare witness the end. We were all there from every nation on earth and they for the most part had been no where else. I processed Srebrenica as yet one case in point that the international peace mission, which I was apart jaron, was just what Helen Keller described as the “Tragic Apology for wrong conditions.” I was a volunteer and it was different for me. I had come for a bed. That is my story. They had survived for the end. That is their story, but as I watched their faces on that day twenty eight years ago, I didn’t see anyone. Everything could be worse…no one is prepared for that, and so I continue this journey today following the path which I have followed to exhaustion. How will it come out of me? It came out of them slowly as I watched the months roll by. So shall this from me. I keep in mind two things, the words of a man my 6th great-uncle crossed the Atlantic with so long ago:

“Perhaps the sentiments contained in the following pages, are not YET sufficiently fashionable to procure them general favour; a long habit of not thinking a thing WRONG, gives it a superficial appearance of being RIGHT, and raises at first a formidable outcry in defense of custom. But the tumult soon subsides. Time makes more converts than reason.” (Thomas Paine)

And that peace finally did arrive and the street cars sing Sarajevo peace today.

Getting ready to do something you know is hard.  Is different than doing something hard you don't know.  Unknown is where we always are.  Sometimes we feel different

Our scripture for today comes from Matthew 16:13-20 which I read from the Amplified Bible, Peter’s Confession of Christ

13 Now when Jesus went into the region of Caesarea Philippi, He asked His disciples, “Who do people say that the Son of Man is?” 14 And they answered, “Some say John the Baptist; others, Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah, or [just] one of the prophets.”  15 He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?”

Out of nowhere, it seemed, as they traveled along, Jesus asked his disciples a question of identity. “Who do you say that I am?” It’s a question we must answer again and again as we seek to become disciples of Jesus Christ.  There are things we can know about God next to thing we cannot know.

16 Simon Peter replied, “You are the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed), the Son of the living God.” 17 Then Jesus answered him, “Blessed [happy, spiritually secure, favored by God] are you, Simon son of Jonah, because flesh and blood (mortal man) did not reveal this to you, but My Father who is in heaven. 18 And I say to you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build My church; and the gates of Hades (death) will not overpower it [by preventing the resurrection of the Christ]. 19 I will give you the keys (authority) of the kingdom of heaven; and whatever you bind [forbid, declare to be improper and unlawful] on earth will have [already] been bound in heaven, and whatever you loose [permit, declare lawful] on earth will have [already] been loosed in heaven.”

Future perfect passive.  Will have [already] been.  The who not as important as the what.  We find not only a proclamation of faith, but a foundation upon which the Church was built.  Here, Jesus plays on words, using the name "Peter," which means "rock." He designates Peter as the foundation, the rock of faith upon which the Church would be established.  Peter became the rock upon which the Church was built, our faith serves as the bedrock of our spiritual lives. When we build our lives on the truth of Christ, we establish a strong foundation that can withstand even when everything is worse.

The most radical interpretation of Peter's confession involves viewing it as a statement not only about Jesus' divinity but also as a revolutionary call to challenge established religious and political systems. This interpretation focuses on the idea that Peter's confession was not just a declaration of faith but a subversive act that called for a complete reimagining of societal norms.

Peter and the disciples lived under Roman rule, enduring not only political subjugation but also a religious hierarchy that often aligned with those in power. In this context, Peter's confession can be perceived as a radical act of defiance.  By proclaiming Jesus as the Son of the living God, Peter implicitly rejected the divine authority claimed by the emperors and the religious elite.

While the traditional understanding of Peter's confession as a proclamation of faith remains crucial, this radical interpretation encourages us to view it through a lens of social revolution. Let us be inspired by Peter's boldness to challenge the powers that be and to work towards a world where justice, compassion, and equity prevail. In doing so, we embrace our role as agents of transformation and disciples of a revolutionary Christ.

The confession of Peter is a significant event recorded in multiple Gospels, specifically in Matthew 16:13-20, Mark 8:27-30, and Luke 9:18-21. While the core of the confession remains consistent across the Gospels, there are some differences in how each Gospel writer presents the event. Here are the main differences

Luke's account follows a similar pattern. Jesus asks, "But who do you say that I am?" Peter responds, "The Christ of God."  In Luke's version, there's no command to keep the revelation a secret
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Mark's account is concise, focusing on Peter's response to Jesus' question, "But who do you say that I am?" Peter answers, "You are the Christ."  Jesus then commands the disciples not to tell anyone about him, referred to as the "Messianic Secret."

20 Then He gave the disciples strict orders to tell no one that He was the Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed).

Timing is everything with the revolution of Jesus.  Jesus' hidden messiahship was not about concealing his identity but subverting conventional expectations. By commanding silence about his miracles, he challenged people to look beyond the traditional understanding of the Messiah as a political or military leader.

Jesus aimed to shift the focus from himself to the Kingdom of God. He sought to highlight that the Kingdom was not about power in a worldly sense but about transformation, justice, and spiritual renewal. By revealing his identity too soon, he might have distracted from the essential message.

As we reflect on this radical interpretation of the Messianic Secret, let us remember that the Gospels hold layers of meaning that challenge our assumptions and inspire new perspectives. If we see Jesus' concealment not as a mere secrecy but as a deliberate invitation to seek a deeper, personal understanding of his messiahship, we unlock profound insights for our faith journey. Let us be seekers of truth, embracing the challenge to go beyond the surface and discover the radical transformation that Christ offers to those who truly seek. In this pursuit, we unveil the heart of the Messianic Secret - an invitation to a transformative encounter with the Messiah and his Kingdom.

You [believers], like living stones, are being built up into a spiritual house (1 Peter 2:5 Amplified Bible)
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In Isaiah 51 again from the Amplified Bible we find:

51 “Listen to Me, you who pursue righteousness (right standing with God),
Who seek and inquire of the Lord:
Look to the rock from which you were cut
And to the excavation of the quarry from which you were dug.

Sometimes I forget. Sometimes I don’t remember. Sometimes I have no idea. How was it that I lived that way?  It seems like I am always going to Bosnia. I have a story to tell you. This indefinable you. I start here, as there is nowhere else. I have no idea what I shall write. Is it my story? Is it there story? Is it their story? This debit I owe. This task I undertake.  So patient as if it never needed to be done. I remember this night twenty eight years ago in Zenica more than I did then alone in a strange and far off land.

“Listen carefully to Me [says the Lord], O My people,
And hear Me, O My nation;
For a [divine] law will go forth from Me,
And I will quickly establish My justice as a light to the peoples.
“My righteousness (justice) is near, My salvation has gone forth,
And My arms will judge the peoples;
The islands and coastlands will wait for Me,
And they will wait with hope and confident expectation for My arm.
“Lift up your eyes to the heavens,
Then look to the earth beneath;
For the heavens will be torn to pieces and vanish like smoke,
And the earth will wear out like a garment
And its inhabitants will die in like manner.
But My salvation will be forever,
And My righteousness (justice) [and faithfully fulfilled promise] will not be broken.

Interpretation is important throughout the Bible. It is interpretation that distinguishes between the ethical and trivial in biblical laws. By interpretation we see the biblical characters in proper perspective, and we see when we should follow their example and when we ought to be warned by their faults. When we claim to take the Bible "just as it is written", we are following the "common sense interpretation", that does not include thought and study. Let us be very hesitant in using the phrase, "the Bible says",---it takes careful and prayerful study to interpret correctly the message of the Bible.

And having read, studied, and interpreted the Bible----remember "it is better to be a sermon than to preach one."

       Let us pray......

Our dear Heavenly Father---  Father of all creation, whose being is from the beginning of time, speak to us.  Raise us above the storms of our generation and above the barriers with which we seek to surround ourselves.  Fill us with the love and understanding that embraces all people and is not bound by nation, race, or creed.  Forgive us our little goals and narrow visions.  Lead us to dedicate ourselves to the work of thy kingdom.  Make us willing to be disciples of Jesus Christ.  Though our minds cannot fully grasp His Call to us give us the will to follow Him,  accepting Him as the Savior of man and the hope of the world.
Amen......

Now may the Grace of our Lord Jesus, the Love of God, the communion and fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you now and remain with you always.
                                                     Amen.

           .........Nottingham Methodist July 1962

8/27/2023 Nottingham UMC




Monday, August 14, 2023

Future

Some times we are constrained
Different shapes our travels take

The past can constrain but is hard to surprise you
It is not supposed to

To be held within bounds
It is called life

Getting ready to do something you know is hard
Is different than doing something hard you don't know

Unknown is where we always are
Sometimes we feel different

Saturday, July 22, 2023

Place of Color

We are forever making things clean.  Many of our activities are about putting things back in order.  We often believe that things can not be clean enough.  We talk about them being sacred even.  I am not here to tell you not to clean I am afraid, but I want you to think about this in the proper context.

The first thing to understand is there can be too much of a good thing.  As a child of the seventies it is rather funny to know that my favorite food of the time is extinct.  I loved the bananas then more than anything.  My birthday cake had to have them, but over the years the cakes would never be the same.  They got very good at growing bananas.

We got so good at growing bananas we created new types of nations: the banana republic.  This phrase people like to throw around, but it really is tied to the extinction of my banana.  This wonderful system they had relied on clones for one thing.  They would take parts of the banana plant and replant and make new plants.  Well actually they would make identical copies.  A fungus came along and found one plant it liked and it found it liked all the plants around.  Monoculture was the problem.

There were many lessons learned from this experience yet what they did was find another banana and do the same thing.  That banana we eat today may change again soon.  How does this relate to cleaning?  They tried to clear away everything from their field that they thought would not make them money.  They wanted more and more of what made them money.  Good was good so more would be great.

There are reasons that this is not true.  There are pros and cons.  Yield maximization, easier to manage, and higher revenue vs higher pesticide use, soil degradation and fertility loss, higher use of fertilizers, high water use, decrease in biodiversity and impact on pollinators, economic risks,.  So monoculture is super popular.

In most subsistence farming practices, crops are grown and harvested to feed a family or local community. In monoculture agriculture, however, the crop is produced for commercial purposes, which gives an oppressive aspect to the whole process of using farmlands to grow monoculture crops. 

Once the harvest is reaped, it will be transported long distances to a large number of destinations.

Our scripture today comes from two sections of Mathew 13 and it paints a clear and difficult picture.  Despite all our efforts when we try to do too much we create worse damage.  As we read this scripture we are going to think deep about the words weeds and good seed.  I will read Matthew 13:24-30 from the Amplified Bible: Weeds among Wheat

24 Jesus gave them another parable [to consider], saying, “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field.

We have a story here of practical application.  We begin with judgement.  There is good seed and there is something else.  The confounding thing is they produce things that resemble each other.  Well the assumption we make is the seed that is not good is simply of no use.  The good seed is so defined by what it is eventually used.  If it fills the belly of a warrior.  If it fills the belly of a widow.  If it fills the belly of a king.  If it falls as a scrap and fills the beggars belly.  These are not closed stories Jesus is telling, but like this life they are confusing.

Back in verse 13 Mathew informs us why Jesus is talking in parables.

13 This is the reason I speak to the crowds in parables: because while [having the power of] seeing they do not see, and while [having the power of] hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand and grasp [spiritual things]. 14 In them the prophecy of Isaiah is being fulfilled, which says,

‘You will hear and keep on hearing, but never understand;
And you will look and keep on looking, but never comprehend;
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For this nation’s heart has grown hard,
And with their ears they hardly hear,
And they have [tightly] closed their eyes,
Otherwise they would see with their eyes,
And hear with their ears,
And understand with their heart, and turn [to Me]
And I would heal them [spiritually].’

Already a sad story.  Our scripture continues:

 25 But while his men were sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds [resembling wheat] among the wheat, and went away. 26 So when the plants sprouted and formed grain, the weeds appeared also. 27 The servants of the owner came to him and said, ‘Sir, did you not sow good seed in your field? Then how does it have weeds in it?’ 28 He replied to them, ‘An enemy has done this.’ The servants asked him, ‘Then do you want us to go and pull them out?’ 29 But he said, ‘No; because as you pull out the weeds, you may uproot the wheat with them. 30 Let them grow together until the harvest; and at harvest time I will tell the reapers, “First gather the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; but gather the wheat into my barn.”’”

There is a political question here for the church about who planted the weeds.  They are talking about a specific plant that looks like wheat but has no value.  We often think of weeds as plants we don't like.  Here we have something more.  A mimic almost a parasite.  There is also a practical question here that I find more relevant today.  The church has long wrestled with interpretation.  Many churches don't speak to each other much..

It is a mixed bag.  There are so many that resemble each other.  It is an odd word to use but there is an evolution of religion.  In the past you can be assured there were more types.  In the future there will be less.  It was so with us.  Where ever we look in the past we find similar things.   There have been many types of people.  If you look into tradition there are more types than can be counted.  If we look with a scientific eye we find new continuously.  We learn about the future and the past if you think about it.  We are currently looking at early galaxies that seem too complex and wonder if the universe might be twice as old as we think.  

Would explain the stars that seem to be older than the universe for one thing.  The Catholic church once said time started October 22, 4004 BC.  Today the same institution now speaks of the big bang 13.7 or perhaps 26.3 billion years ago.  Nobody seems to really care anymore what they think.

The way to respond to problems is usually to do something, but for practical purposes there really is nothing we can do in certain cases.  To the people who heard only half our scripture today this  would almost be a depressing message.  There is nothing to be done.  Good when sown will grow but it would seem also will evil.  This scripture almost foreshadows the entire darker side to the churches history.  Often people have tried to rip up whole types of people.  What they found at the roots was they were too intertwined to take apart.

Ecclesiastes 4:12 And though one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Matthew 19:6 Amplified Bible: 6 So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore, what God has joined together, let no one separate.”

Mathew takes us deeper with the disciples in 13:36-43 again from the Amplified Bible
The Weeds Explained
36 Then He left the crowds and went into the house. And His disciples came to Him saying, “Explain [clearly] to us the parable of the weeds in the field.” 

What a blessing to be able to ask the great teacher a question and what a blessing to have this response here:

37 He answered, “The one who sows the good seed is the Son of Man, 38 and the field is the world; and [as for] the good seed, these are the sons of the kingdom; and the weeds are the sons of the evil one; 39 and the enemy who sowed them is the devil, and the harvest is the end of the age; and the reapers are angels. 40 So just as the weeds are gathered up and burned in the fire, so will it be at the end of the age.

Again to the practical first we see these sons resemble each other.  Even if we could tell them apart we would not be able to separate ourselves from the great battle of our time.  Of every time.  As we actively work to make the world better there are people who actively work to make the world worse.  Why they do is less relevant than they do.  In the end all they have to do is change, but for us there will be no shortage of work.

 41 The Son of Man will send out His angels, and they will gather out of His kingdom all things that offend [those things by which people are led into sin], and all who practice evil [leading others into sin], 42 and will throw them into the furnace of fire; in that place there will be weeping [over sorrow and pain] and grinding of teeth [over distress and anger]. 

It is easy to see why the apostles wanted to believe this would all happen in their generation.  In the ways that are important it happened during their generation: they fought the great fight.  In the ways that are important it is happening in our generation and your generation and my generation: we fight the great fight.

43 Then the righteous [those who seek the will of God] will shine forth [radiating the new life] like the sun in the kingdom of their Father. He who has ears [to hear], let him hear and heed My words.

The good seed in the end in not in danger.  The righteous seek the will of God.  There is something over simplified as if the world was back and white.  We like to believe that so much our intuition tells us more good is all we need, but when we look at the context again we see a more complex picture.  Where we manage to create black and white like those banana fields it always takes oppression.  Along with the comical aspects of the banana republic the foundations are truly dark.

Reality has more color and most of the world reflects this fact.  I have this sense when people talk about the third world this is what they are really talking about.  This need to make the world black and white.  To rip out the color is not to understand what is white light: all the colors together.  There used to be a first and second and third world.  The second one was this two camp theory of the world and included all the communist countries on alternate development paths.  Poland in 1963 is a pretty fair example of a second world country.

So you see there really no longer is a second world yet people still talk about the third world.  There is something in common that is not easy to name, but when I look around the world I see these places of color.  Practical difficulties created by the great fight.  Where people separate themselves there is this oppression involved.  There is really no way around.  A place of white that wants to separate itself out.  The flaw in white supremacy is that all the colors are present in itself.

When we go out in the field we must understand there is going to be some confusion.  We can equally understand that there is good reason.  People working towards different ends resemble each other.  God would not lose one.  There are people working towards our extinction.  The great battle is happening in every generation so yeah I am sure they don't feel wrong.

Let Us pray
Creator of All
We seek your will
We find ourselves confused
Your son told us we would be 
We glorify the one who uses even our confusion 
We ask your help in all we do
Continue to guide us we ask in the name of your son Jesus Christ
Amen

Benediction
In your community you will find confusion
This another sign to glorify our Father in Heaven
Rejoice in your confusion and know you are not alone
Go be community

Nottingham UMC 7/23/2023

Place of Color

 Reality has more color and most of the world reflects this fact.  I have this sense when people talk about the third world this is what they are really talking about.  This need to make the world black and white.  To rip out the color is not to understand what is white light: all the colors together.  There used to be a first and second and third world.  The second one was this two camp theory of the world and included all the communist countries on alternate development path.  Poland in 1963 is a pretty fair example of a second world country.


So you see there really no longer is a second world yet people still talk about the third world.  After spending several weeks in Mexico I find we need new words.  There is something in common that is not easy to name, but when I look around the world I see these places of color.  Practical difficulties created by the great fight.  Where people separate themselves there is this oppression involved.  There is really no way around.  A place of white that wants to separate itself out.  The flaw in white supremacy is that all the colors are present.

Monday, July 17, 2023

Mexico

I fall in love easy
Did you ever meet someone you were sure you already knew
My how life taking trips was always to see someone

There are cooks and artists in the kitchens
Artists bring you back
They don't seem to recognize each other

The heat is what I miss the most
No concern for the weather
Not a topic of any concern

Where I come from it is almost all we talk about
If you don't like the weather it will change
The heat not interested

No bad days in Sayulita
The heat grabs hold of you
Olympic epic sweating

Everywhere I go here is cold
I miss the heat being held
Every single interaction positive

Showered down and cleansed my soul
Was never one much for heat
First to say it is easier to get warm

Traveling light I could have travelled lighter still
Not a single forecast other than for the waves
Never really knew the temperature but not below 80 18 days

Brought little rain with me
Absent seven months
It is a special type of life that thrives here

Despite every obstacle and speed bump
Love speed bumps in Mexico wave motif I guess
There is a rhythm to cross the road

Not a first time feel something words fail to describe
A place of color
A place that feels like home

A place of white such a contrast
A place better organized
A place that feels like a fortress

Whatever was going on I felt warm
With other foreigners in the combi the AC engaged
Without the window open

Was a long time for me not to drive
Hunted by waves from Singapore in Mexico
I miss the heat




Saturday, July 8, 2023

The Main Break

As much fun as I am having I am really only at the end of the beginning
But as of today I have been to the main break
Not all that much to report but I caught each wave

Somewhere I wasn't sure I would ever be and just found myself
Roberto called me lets go
It was gonna be a lot of sun and I might look like a Mexican after he said

I finally had his name right
I said I was with Sergio they said they think there was some confusion
I said I was sure there was

We had spoken many things
Beyond words
Beyond names

There was Hannah volunteering from Australia
You couldn't guess what she guessed
There is no way for you to know

You need a name to recommend
You need a name to share
A teacher really don't need a name

Might have guessed it was the main break as a boat load was dropped 
Made my way out there
The board will run some when you stop paddling

It was the same but different
There was more time to do everything
Those last three paddles made all the difference

These beautiful green mountains
What you saw most of the time there was people giving up
Everyone and everything is so much closer than it seems

I ran down not sure how many times
Six hours all told
Back at the camp I needed my arms to get up from the chair

I was not in pain I was depleted
Walked back from town walked down to town
Everything was functional and I was feeling good

I could not have planned a better schedule
Should not take credit next time would plan less
I was lucky I was out on the main break before I knew I was

The last two I knew I was done 
You don't know how much you got
But you can measure yourself at the main break