Thursday, April 26, 2018

Grandma

We only miss what is gone
Sit and think you see certain things a first time
It is hard to keep people together

We were all ways just together
I had come along late most of the stories older than me
They told them around her table seemed mostly at 3am

Figured you all had a grandma like mine
Thought we would all just be together forever
People leave and new ones come

There are less since she been gone
We are not drawn to each other by her anymore
It is the material difference to this new world

Different I guess
But you see we come together around each other
Keystones members of our families

Different I knew
Really something to see had it not just been everyday
Like getting ready for Christmas in January

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Zenica Brown

1

They knew what to do.  They were children of war.   When you go to war you never arrive you just draw closer.   You live in war.   If you stay home sick from school they still have school every child learns.   You believe war is distant yet just there.   War rages like wild fire.

War never leaves you.   Long I had been able to ignore.   More people are confused than not.   Children of war learn costly lessons and they taught me.   We stood in the central hallway.  No one spoke.  They had spoke using a word that sounded like grenade.   They used it to describe something much larger.   The Third Corp had done something.

The night before we walked home from a party that could not end til curfew did.   We couldn't be loud but we could be together.   If you were out after six you were out till six in the morning.   A grenata fell on people in the streets one night in Tuzla.  We couldn't go out for a time.   Things had been much worse and before that things were rather nice.

We heard them in Dornji Vakuf; something was almost expected to arrive.   Zenica is one third city,  one third factory, and one third park. These shells fell where they did like a dice roll on the valley.   That day they seemed to hit the park.   It wasn't a great park as anyone from Zenica will tell you,  money all went to Sarajevo in 1984.  But now they could see stars and fish had returned to the river.   Things were getting better.

Week or two later at night same thing,  but they hit the factory.   The other volunteers gathered in my room.   I had been the longest.   As each fell I said I'm sure that was the last one.   Shelling is like the weather.   Nine this time across the balcony we could see the factory.   Seemed so far somehow and now close. Guns get hot, even when the soldier gets no rest the guns do, to cool. 

We a house of expats were the children.   It was how we were helpful.  We saw things like children.  This should be easy to fix.  

2

Things are seen from different points of view.   My friend told me a story of how he got a job guarding a British base in Bosnia.   Him and some friends who had been brought on the base to gaurd fuel that was being stolen.   They gave them a gaurd house with sky satellite television and all the modern convienence of the NATO forces.   This was like being in another dimension and suddenly returning to glimpse where you came from.   It was as joyous a story.  They were in shock they could not do the job.   They had a night to remember.

Later that night a British contractor told a story how his fuel was stolen at the same base the same night.   Those guards got in trouble.  Years with no electricity.   That contractor in his own shock.   These worthless guards and ruthless thieves he described this terror.  

It was not easy to figure out they were talking about the same night.   Harder still to write a story of them both.   Polarized I don't think they saw each other as they passed.   I feel it is a funny story like most in Bosnia .

11

Things get worse and no one is ever prepared for that

7

Some of the best things in the bad times

95

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Dimensions

There is a line a plane a cube
There is time
Angles lead to different perceptions
Mathematically

I don't always have anything to say
If you ask me I will tell you
Perhaps I should not I will never know
I open up and then I see

People see things different
You say there is no evidence of more than three dimensions
I almost wonder if we each live in our own

Friday, January 12, 2018

Here We Go

I remember she said she wanted me to hold her
A bad tense told me what I had no idea

We have different years on our calenders
No place to start from each their own accord

I do not see what you see
The only thing i can assure you

And here we go around again the sun
I'm not going to make it that far geologically

Slowing down is not a bad thing
Still a worrisome trend for some sure

Why would it not be complicated
How could you be free

There is that I can not tell you
A joyous way to live

You just need to find joy

Friday, November 17, 2017

Ethnic Cleansing: An Introduction

I come from a divided place and I've seen places divided in so many ways.   There are streets where they take different types of money on different sides of the same small street.   No physical border just a barrier of two brother`s minds.   It was actually rather easy to understand.   There was still blood staining the street.

My friend who lived right there explained we were are all worse than worse.   His former apartment building a whole in the ground we talked above.   Rain water gathered to the top of the water table.   Almost looked as if someone was planning a pool next to the fountain.   He made a strong point and hard to tell in Bosnia sometimes what had been destroyed and what was just being built.

On both sides of the red lines where I grew up they took the same money and prayed to the same gods.  We spilled plenty of blood almost a national pastime, but we found a new one.   An American game who's only goal to be safe at home. 

The drama the same.   Politics the same.   Your distance from the frontline will reduce the severity of consequences.   We are all everyone of us a small finite distance from the frontline. 

The war zone and the peace zone both divide.   The former will usually tell you why.   They didn't want the refugees back that's why the negotiations dragged on so long.   Most of our people have been equally displaced,  but seldom ask why.   It almost seems a natural occurrence.   What feeds war.   Things look divided when you get here.   Born  there  born here.

The peace implementation is designed to avoid conflict not solve.   As should seem obvious violence is always an option.   Fractional banking for courage.   In Cleveland it is easy to see what has been destroyed and  what has been built.

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Subaghraj

I enjoy being sub
That's my fault
The world is a resturant
Managed from below

The bottom is fine
But it is not alone
The worst is only relative
Best nothing more

There is always demand
You either take care of people
Or you run interviews year round
Guess which they choose

Poetry is impotent she said
Just don't understand it