Friday, June 30, 2023

Surfing 101

I water skied ten years and the feeling was always the same the first run of the season.  We awake muscles that we seldom use.  After three days surfing those same muscles are burning.  No real pain but absolute fatigue.  Not me but parts of me.

So after three days I will take a break.  When I watch other people surf I can see what they are doing.  There really isn't so much to do.  The green waves don't catch you.  It is gravity that propels you.  The white waves they catch you and take them with you.

You can be the hunter or the hunted.  I see many hunters around.  I am content now to be hunted.  I find my place and wait for the waves.  As each one comes I decide yes or no.  The hunters the seek the waves.  Maybe one day, but my soft top is heavy and buoyant at the same time.  When I catch the wave it feels like standing on a pier.

I fight the ocean too much.  I fight out and I fight back.  I am constantly trying to do something.  I am reminded that in the ocean I am prey.  Something bit my foot today on the top.  Not quite sure what it was, but I have this feeling.  It seemed to be a crab's claw.  As it closed on my foot I got a mental image of what was biting me.  I have been bit by humans in my life, i have three sister, always 3 against 1.  I got those same mental pictures.  I have never been bitten by a crab before, but on the plus side no stinger.

Not sure what all might like to take a bite out of me in the ocean, but I am here on the internet and honestly don't really want to know.  It is a long list to be sure.  So your a surfer you can be the hunter, but you are still prey.  

I feel I am making progress letting the board and the ocean work.   No one wins fight the ocean.  I have my emergency escape so well named.  Intuition does not help on the board.  To me it is like a big ski.  The rails are just so nice to grab, but you lose all control.  Trim turn one way fine, back the other and you lose control.  The trim turn puts a rail down, back the other way both rails down nothing good will happen.

You have to trim and carve.  Shift your weight those soft tops are heavy.  I am getting there.  I can see now what all the surfers are doing which is probably the biggest sense of accomplishment.  I know what they are trying to do.  Today I saw this amazing surfer really incredible, but i know something more.  Time and again she tried to catch a green wave and she forgot those last three powerful paddles   The words of my instructor resound in my mind, I want to yell to her.

Sergio, my instructor, good times, i can remember everything he said.  My favorite was it is like driving a Ferrari, little adjustments make big differences.  Something perhaps like my old MG.  Some times it took the corners itself.  That feeling is what I am hunting as I am hunted on the board.  Good energy Sergio who was married five days ago after knowing his wife 4 months.  Between waves there is plenty to talk about.

It is a fifteen walk from the surf shop to the beach.  Sergio has carried the soft top 5 out of 6 earning every cent of a gratuity and wedding present.  Not that I can't do, but he didn't have to ask twice.  Those soft tops are heavy.

Now when they said we were going to walk through the crocodile swamp I actually thought they were joking.  One year a guest stepped on a small croc and got a bit out of his calf.  No joke, there are bridges built for the rainy season which just started.  The night I arrived it rained the first time since October.  A storm moving in tomorrow another reason to take a break, but even the nicest day I would be resting.

Two more lessons, each one learned so much I wonder if there is much left.  I will be in a new place Monday, but the surf school has a location there and a shuttle to come back here for two more lessons.  The new place some say here too many hippies.  Well maybe I will find some vegan food.

Mexico first impression is everybody hustling.  The airport was hell until I realized all airports are hell.  If someone came to Cleveland and wanted a ride to the hotel someone was going to pay a bunch of money.  Well I thought if this is the worst part of the trip I will give someone a blessing.  Nice young kid ended up driving me very fast and very well, the best taxi drivers in Mexico heading for their next fare.

People love their meat here.  Couple restaurants I could fins only guacamole to eat.  Bit intimidating because they give you so many thing to eat with it,  Not sure what everything is for xD.  But I found some humus with vegetables today.  You might that would be veggies to dip.  Nope some nice big veggies on top and tortillas and bread.  Some yummy jar of something.  There was a truly sublime pepper in there I kind of wish were more.  Biggest number was eggplant, seems we were half way to half way to baba ganoush.  

So a weekend of rest ahead.  I don't remember when I last needed this type of rest.  Perhaps last time I went water skiing first time in the season.  One other thing I am not from here.  I see why cold blooded is such a good strategy here.  My body is adjusting.  At times however sweat is just running off my head like a faucet.  On the plus side not up as much at night with so many fluids passing in alternative routes.  I brought two things in case there was a cold nigh, won't need them, live learn.

Saturday, June 17, 2023

Father

"I have taught the way to cross over the flood by going from one support to the next, the noble liberation." This was taught by a great teacher Siddhartha Gautama.  You may have heard him called Buddha. Legendary biographies tell the story of how Gautama left his palace to see the outside world for the first time and how he was shocked by his encounter with human suffering.  Gautama's father was shielding him from religious teachings and from knowledge of human suffering, so that he would become a great king instead of a great religious leader.

Father's often do what they think is best for their children.  They often fail, but this is all part of a greater process.  Imagine that Siddhartha's father had succeeded.  We would not know his name I think.

But it is this the way to cross over the flood that comes to me this Father's Day.  Going from one support to the next.  Well this was something I learned while in an unexpected swamp with my Dad.  We weren't supposed to go in we found out later, but he had wounded a deer and there was a blood trail so we were going to go in anyway.  Even if we knew that we shouldn't we probably would.  My Dad didn't have to tell me that.

He had purchased himself a new gun giving me his old one he bought when I was born.  His new one was pump action and had raised sights as a bonus feature.  My Dad did things his own way.  He fell in some mud with that gun once and to his mind the best way to clean the gun was to shoot it.  Do not try this at home.  There is a reason people clean their guns.

We survived but he knocked the scope out of line we later realized.  How did we realize?  Well he shot at that deer we were chasing into the woods twelve times.  That never happens.  Hunters don't get twelve shots ever, but he was on top of a ridge shooting down on the deer.  The animal had no idea which direction danger was coming from so he perceived them all as dangerous and just stood there.

I was on the other side of the ridge counting the shots thinking, hmm must be cleaning gun again.  There is no reason to shoot twelve times in the woods.  That is what I was thinking.  With the twelfth shot he gut shot him.  On that last shot he remembered his raised sights allowed him to use the iron sights on the barrel.  

I climbed over the ridge once the shooting finally stopped.  He would need to tell me a story.  We gathered and followed the blood trail to the wire of the protected area.  He wasn't going to leave it to suffer we were going and I didn't have a vote.  We actually got to him pretty quick and he was down.  I remember this day like it was yesterday.

Was rather magical.  My dad remembered we had come to do something.  I had a habit in the woods of forgetting why I was there.  Hunted ten years and never killed a thing.  There was gonna be death here soon and the deer was quiet and saw us approach. They get tired out pretty fast even when they are not shot.  Why you can't hunt with dogs they would just run them down.

That was our first hunting strategy you might not know.  We just kept going and eventually the animals would lay down tired just like this deer had.  Looked at us.  My dad shot it and dressed it.  We were ready to go in moments.  Then the fateful decision.  I was just a kid, but to me there was this clear blood trail back to where we had been.  My Dad however thought he could hear the road.  You could not see twelve feet where we were in the thick.  I mean I wasn't ever not gonna follow, but I watched that blood trail as we walked the other way.

I knew why we had come in.  We had a responsibility.  Was not a good time for short cuts.  We spent four hours crossing a swamp going from one support to the next.  It was an unseasonably warm year for hunting but it was still cold that day.  It was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.  We went from tuft of land to tuft of land.  We were soaked to the bone.  We didn't stop because we couldn't.  I didn't think my dad would make it.  I was one hundred yards ahead trail blazing heading to the sound of the road.

He was dragging that deer.  I though none of this is necessary.  He actually used the deer as a bridge at times.  Maybe why he kept pulling it.  We came to the road finally about a mile down the road from the car.  My dad walked that as I waited with the deer.  When we got it back to the house my grandfather asked my dad if he had shot it or drowned it.

We weren't lost.

Forever for the first time in your life
Along for the longer
The first thing of any importance
Here something that can not be ignored
Each moment of sleep now borrowed
Ready

Father

Is Anything Too Wonderful?  This the question our national church is asking today.  Each week they offer themes and those of us who give messages talked about connecting our themes more.  David mentioned Romans 4 last week and this week we find ourselves in Romans 5.  But to that question.

Is Anything Too Wonderful?   This question leads us to think of the most amazing things we have accomplished as a congregation.  There are really too many to count.  Yet it is the most mundane that can be really the most wonderful when we stop and remind ourselves.

That is really what father's day is about I think.  Not that we needed another day to celebrate men, but an institution that really transcends gender.  People don't like to hear it because mostly they use gender words as weapons.  Two things can be true.  People who called God Father often did to oppress people.  When we say God the father we are talking about something greater than gender.

Like art we know it when we see it.  Mothers mother.  Fathers father.  Neither one describes a gender role.  One person can be both when they need to be.  The things people will do when they need to be.  The real strength people can harvest from themselves

The Path of the Disciple: The Weight of the Call
this THIRD SUNDAY AFTER PENTECOST

What incredible, almost impossible-to-believe event has happened in your community? What stretched your understanding of God at work in the world? What blew your mind with wonder and joy? Grab hold of that today and celebrate the goodness of God at work in your midst. 

I am reminded of Mathew 9:36-38 again from the Amplified Bible:

9:36 When he saw the crowds, he had compassion for them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.

What is most amazing is that Jesus is here to help.  What makes people so angry is it takes so long.  It all takes so long because:

9:37 Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few;

9:38 therefore ask the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest."

From Romans 4 briefly

“Abraham believed in (trusted, relied on) God, and it was credited to his account as righteousness (right living, right standing with God).” 4 Now to a laborer, his wages are not credited as a favor or a gift, but as an obligation [something owed to him]. 5 But to the one who does not work [that is, the one who does not try to earn his salvation by doing good], but believes and completely trusts in Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is credited to him as righteousness (right standing with God). 

So we come to our scripture today Romans 5:1-8 which I read from the Amplified Bible:

Results of Justification

5 Therefore, since we have been justified [that is, acquitted of sin, declared blameless before God] by faith, [let us grasp the fact that] we have peace with God [and the joy of reconciliation with Him] through our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed). 2 Through Him we also have access by faith into this [remarkable state of] grace in which we [firmly and safely and securely] stand.

Deep in the swamp.  Going from one support to the next.  We [firmly and safely and securely] stand.  I wouldn't say I was afraid, but I knew that I could not stop.  In each position we come we find security, but we can't stay there.  There have to be results.

Let us rejoice in our hope and the confident assurance of [experiencing and enjoying] the glory of [our great] God [the manifestation of His excellence and power]. 3 And not only this, but [with joy] let us exult in our sufferings and rejoice in our hardships, knowing that hardship (distress, pressure, trouble) produces patient endurance; 4 and endurance, proven character (spiritual maturity); and proven character, hope and confident assurance [of eternal salvation]. 

Could we have died in that swamp?  I was fifteen maybe.  He was forty-five so much older than me even now.  We were going to survive.

5 Such hope [in God’s promises] never disappoints us, because God’s love has been abundantly poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Should we have followed the blood trail out?  I am sure that we should have.  Two paths diverged in the woods. and I—
I took the one less traveled by, with my Dad
And that has made all the difference.

6 While we were still helpless [powerless to provide for our salvation], at the right time Christ died [as a substitute] for the ungodly. 7 Now it is an extraordinary thing for one to willingly give his life even for an upright man, though perhaps for a good man [one who is noble and selfless and worthy] someone might even dare to die. 8 But God clearly shows and proves His own love for us, by the fact that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

At the heart of the swamp and the heart of our religion.  We award our highest medals for people who save people who are supposed to be saved.  People who complain about religion are not complaining about this heart.  Saving people who don't want to be saved is what they do not like.  It is what takes so much time.

The worst offenders just needs to find faith.  It almost doesn't seem fair.  I think this is why people like to weaponize Christianity.  They just ignore the heart.  It is easy to do.

Fred Rogers or you may know him better as Mr Rogers summed it up this way.  "We live in a world in which we need to share responsibility. It's easy to say "It's not my child, not my community, not my world, not my problem." Then there are those who see the need and respond. I consider those people my heroes."

I consider them Fathers in the best possible meaning of that word.  It bothers me that pain is so wound up in that word.  Best I can do is say not what I mean.  We need to listen to each other closer.

And if you are enduring something.  I want you to know you are doing more than you know.  You are building endurance.  Know: that hardship (distress, pressure, trouble) produces patient endurance; 4 and endurance, proven character (spiritual maturity); and proven character, hope and confident assurance [of eternal salvation]. 

Let Us Pray
Heavenly Father
Give us this day once again 
Let your word be ours
We need your support
Help us find our way
Let our hearts be our ambassadors
Let the love of our savior rule
Let this worship be a time of prayer for deeper trust,
for opened eyes, for willing hearts and hands. 
Let this time be a time of stirring us up to go and proclaim that the kingdom of heaven is at hand.
In the name of your son our every support Jesus
Amen

Benediction
The way to cross over the flood is by going from one support to the next
Father, Son, Holy Spirit
If words are weapons
Yours don't have to be
Go be community


Nottingham UMC 6-18-2023

Friday, June 16, 2023

T

The question was answered unasked
There was no opportunity before
She was angry at work

Was gonna ask her what they call her for short
I was on a mission wandered the aisle 
Wondered what I needed

There was nothing I needed
She wanted not to be there
I had different feelings

There were many keys
She was a storm
Mission was aborted

Some one called to her, "T"
Was what they call her for short
I got what I wanted

Will it lead me somewhere
The mission critical only to me
Or might not be

A question answered
No question asked
This would mean something to me

Never happened before
This is what I mark with a T




Thursday, June 15, 2023

I Know

And her answer was, "I know."
Not my expectation
Not that I knew what I expected

She could entertain me in many ways
I shared something that had no answer
And her answer was, "I know."

Not the answer really to anything
But a good one
Love a good answer

Not sure what the translator
Said I told